I am new here… I found this site in hopes of connecting with people that understand.
I do have two children from a previous relationship (their dad passed away) - and have been trying with my current partner for over 4 years.
In 2008 we had a 6 month long pregnancy that ended in our son passing away due to a birth defect. Go figure. A baby we tried for and wanted sooo badly. I am still working through that and was lucky enough to spend his 2 hours of life on Earth with him, have pictures of him, but not him.
We have been trying again for over 2 years. In which time, we have tried timed intercourse through a clinic, also rounds of clomid, and femara, HCG triggers, had a HSG ultrasound, IUI with sperm wash - then were told that DH had a varicoceole (after I went to the dr saying I would like info on tying my tubes to avoid this anguish every month of nothing).
He had the repair surgery in March, and still nothing.
It is even harder today because, of course, here I am Day One. I was also told that I had Insulin Resistance and took Metformin, but stopped a few weeks before my last ultrasound, which showed no cysts (done in August 2010).
Sometimes, I want to give up. Nobody understands. They think something is wrong with us - because we had a son that died, we cannot get pregnant, I cannot handle being around pregnant people. It hurts!
Enough for now, I suppose. Thanks for reading.