Long time lurker, recent poster. I know that this topic has been posted again and again, but today is day 6 for me post transfer and I’m a wreck. I haven’t felt a single symptom and have convinced myself it didn’t work. We weren’t able to transfer full blasts (we got one early blast and one morula), and this has only been adding to my anxiety. The two transferred embryos weren’t even able to be graded and we were told we likely wouldn’t have any to freeze. Thankfully, we had two “BBB” embryos that made it to freeze on day six. This has helped calm me down a bit, and has given me some hope (maybe if the two made it to day six outside my body then the two slow ones made it inside my body?), but I am so scared of false hope. Hope is such a dangerous thing during this process. Everyone keeps telling me to “calm down,” “relax,” and “stay positive”–but they have no idea what my husband and I have been through. I know you guys understand, and I am just looking for some inspiration. This is our first IVF after about a year of trying, one miscarriage, and one chemical pregnancy, and it’s completely out of pocket – so we are absolutely terrified right now.
Also, not sure if I should wait until my beta or POAS now. My beta is in three days. My husband wants me to wait, but I don’t want to be alone at work when the call comes through. I feel like if I know now, I can be prepared. I don’t want to burst into tears in my office if it’s bad news. I also feel like I can make some weekend plans for us if it’s bad news–book a hotel somewhere, order some wine, just have a nice coping backup plan.
Sorry this is so scattered.
Thanks for listening!