I just recently found this site and I’m so thankful. There is a wealth of information here and a great deal of warm and caring support.
It seems like my heart aches more and more each day. I keep reminding myself that while a baby is my deep desire, God is all I truly need and I can’t let my wants make me forget that. I’ve been very confused about where He wants me to go with this. Do I look at medicating to cause ovulation just like any other non-functioning bodily process or is it over-stepping and not trusting in God’s timing? This is the question I’ve struggled with. I’ve never been one to pray for “a sign.” I guess I’ve felt like I shouldn’t. Recently, though, that exact phrase slipped out in my prayer: “God, give me a sign. Let me know somehow if I’m doing the right thing or not. Do You want me to adopt, to live childless, to devote my life to my students? Or am I on the right track with this medicine?”
Well, my husband and I are pretty decent budgeters. We handle money together and are working to build a good emergency fund. One of the elements of my confusion had to do with the cost of treatment. My OBGYN (who I hope to be trading in soon for a RE) told me insurance wouldn’t pay for anything and his office quoted me self-pay rates. This time, though, he sent me down the street to the hospital to have my US done (to check for cysts, follicle size, etc.). Because it was done in a hospital setting, it was three times the cost of what I paid in the OB’s office!:grr: That didn’t count the bill they told me I would get from the radiologist who read it before sending it over to the OB. I was very frustrated. I’ve had to call multiple times a day to get any answers from my OB and by the time I knew the cost of this, they had left the office. So, because of this and several other communication issues, I decided to call my insurance company, personally, and ask if anything with a RE or diagnosis was covered. Just for kicks, I also asked about US used to monitor with Clomid. Guess what?! Diagnostic testing, including US, are covered at 100%! I can’t believe I didn’t call the insurance myself in the first place, rather than just trusting the doctor, who didn’t even try to run it through. So, I called the hospital and they refunded my card and are running it through insurance! That’s almost $400 back in my bank account plus whatever the radiologist bill would have been. Thank you, God!
Is it scripturally sound to ask God for an earthly sign? Because I really feel like He sent me one. Am I way off track, here?
What are your thoughts?