Anxiety over today's appointment


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I have finished two 7-day long rounds of Provera. During my last vaginal ultrasound, my doctor stated that the walls of my uterus were still too thick to allow proper implantation. I have been diagnosed with PCOS. Two years ago and prior to being treated bya fertility specialist, I had to have a D&C to remedy this condition. My fertililty doctor desperately wants to avoid another surgical procedure because this could cause scarring, adding to my already overwhelming fertility challenges. So, the oral meds “Provera” were meant as a substitute for the procedure. Today, we go in to see whether the two-rounds of Provera cleaned me out well enough, or whether another surgery is imminent.

I’m extremely nervous going back in there. First, I am so scared that we will have to do another D&C. Although I felt like the first round of provera did its job, I’m really not so sure about the second. Also, I’m just so nervous to face Dr. X. Last time we were there, he gave us some ‘homework.’ One of my assignments was to try and shape up/shed some pounds. The complete opposite has occurred. I have gained weight since we were last in. I’m so frustrated with myself! Tom & I were talking the other day, and I actually think I eat to overcome my anxiety. I’m certainly not depressed, being that I’m happier than I have ever been. But, I have extremely high anxiety these days. It’s not all due to fertility/infertility issues, although much of it can be traced back to that. It is also the stress of owning my own business, worrying about finances/bills, and all the other things that we everyday people have to deal with. Anytime I find myself worried/anxious, I am reaching for something to eat. That is if I’m hungry or not! Urggg! It annoys me so much.

Does anyone have ideas on how to deal with the anxiety? :pray:

I am new to this support group. I have a blog dedicated to my struggles: Fruitless Filly


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[quote=thefruitlessfilly]I have finished two 7-day long rounds of Provera. During my last vaginal ultrasound, my doctor stated that the walls of my uterus were still too thick to allow proper implantation. I have been diagnosed with PCOS. Two years ago and prior to being treated bya fertility specialist, I had to have a D&C to remedy this condition. My fertililty doctor desperately wants to avoid another surgical procedure because this could cause scarring, adding to my already overwhelming fertility challenges. So, the oral meds “Provera” were meant as a substitute for the procedure. Today, we go in to see whether the two-rounds of Provera cleaned me out well enough, or whether another surgery is imminent.

I’m extremely nervous going back in there. First, I am so scared that we will have to do another D&C. Although I felt like the first round of provera did its job, I’m really not so sure about the second. Also, I’m just so nervous to face Dr. X. Last time we were there, he gave us some ‘homework.’ One of my assignments was to try and shape up/shed some pounds. The complete opposite has occurred. I have gained weight since we were last in. I’m so frustrated with myself! Tom & I were talking the other day, and I actually think I eat to overcome my anxiety. I’m certainly not depressed, being that I’m happier than I have ever been. But, I have extremely high anxiety these days. It’s not all due to fertility/infertility issues, although much of it can be traced back to that. It is also the stress of owning my own business, worrying about finances/bills, and all the other things that we everyday people have to deal with. Anytime I find myself worried/anxious, I am reaching for something to eat. That is if I’m hungry or not! Urggg! It annoys me so much.

Does anyone have ideas on how to deal with the anxiety? :pray:

I am new to this support group. I have a blog dedicated to my struggles: Fruitless Filly[/quote]

I hope you had a good appointment!! What did the doctor have to say?! Anything encouraging?

As for dealing with the anxiety, I have found the best thing, especially dealing with IF, was exercise. Not only was it a great stress reliever, but its also a “healthy” habit that I carried over into my pregnancy. It doesn’t have to be hard core. Even just taking a daily walk is beneficial. It gives you time to clear your head and get your blood flowing, and you will begin to feel rejuvinated. Soon enough, you will be craving your daily walk, or your daily swim, whatever you choose to do, instead of your potato chips or chocolate or whatever it is you like to munch on when you are anxious.

Meditating is also a great stress reliever. Even if you just designate a half hour at lunch time to just pop in a meditation cd and decompress, it can be a HUGE help!!

let us know what the doctor said…hope it was good news!! Good luck…and if I can help you get on the right track, don’t hesitate to PM me. I know how stressful this is…keep your eye on the prize!!!