My husband and I have been ttc for 5 years now. More and more of my friends and family are coming up pregnant. I am happy for them but sometimes wonder what is wrong with me??? What is it about me and my husband that we can’t conceive?
I went into denial for a while, saying that I didn’t want a baby. I actually tried to convince myself that it wasn’t what I wanted. I know it’s not true and that I want to have a baby more than anything. I just wasn’t prepared for this challenge.
Does anyone get annoyed when they see shows like “16 and pregnant” and “teen moms”? It makes me so upset because these kids that are unprepared get pregnant without trying and we’ve been trying for so many years.
I don’t want to be a person who is not happy for others when they get pregnant. I want to be excited for my friends. I pretended to be excited for my sister when she got pregnant. I pretended because deep down I was ashamed of myself for not being excited for her.
Anyway I’m just hoping someone out there can relate? I think of giving up on ttc because this challenge has been so depressing. I just don’t know that I can give up.