I am getting nervous that I am not going to respond to ovulation stimulation. We can not get a follicle to grow, no matter what we do. I go in for an ultrasound tomorrow to see if there has been any growth but my estordial levels have not been increasing, they have actually been going down, even though I am taking 150 on Gonal twice a day!
I am just venting here but, that is what this is for right? I try to talk to friends and family or even the dear hubby and no one gets it. I feel so alone. They try to be sympathetic to my raging hormones and my mood swings but they just do not understand how hard this is. I don’t recognize my body or the things I am feeling. I want to cry but just can’t seem to let it out - one minute… then two seconds later I am so annoyed and mad I could punch something. And don’t get me started on how tired I am. It is all I can do to get me out of bed let alone to work and seeing clients all day.
All these emotions and all the Dr. has to say is “no response lets increase the dose” … I am just frustrated because this is only the first step and it is already so expensive and so hard, what is the rest of it going to be like? And what if I don’t respond at all? Then what?
Sorry, I just needed to get that off my chest. Guess I just need an IF friend who knows and understands what I am going through!