This year is the start of year #4 for TTC. I’m going to be 32 this year and going to be married for 10. They say nothing is wrong with my Husband or myself. THAT is the frustrating part. Cousins on both sides are pregnant, meaning baby shower this month and next. No one in my family knows of our struggle so when my cousin who is 20 ends up pregnant 3 times in a year, it gets to me since she’d 20! She can’t even drink, she not financially stable and posts that she does not have money for food on Facebook but can buy gaming systems…My Mother is making me go to the shower (Remember, she doesn’t know of my issues. I’m a private person). My co workers know of my issues. A new girl started a year ago and from day one stated that she and her bf were trying to have a baby. Come to find out she was hired making more money than I do and my boss said I wouldn’t get a raise if I took that job knowing full well how to do it. Well wouldn’t you know, she’s pregnant, due next month!
She was made aware of my “issues” one day while she was going on about TTC. Another co worker took it upon herself to do me a “favor” and tell her. She has been going on just about everyday about all things concerning to pregnancy. She already has a son with her ex bf. Does she go on and on to spite me? I feel that way. So when my boss (A Man, who does not know my issues) asks about a baby shower for her, I said I do not want to be a part of it, He takes it as me being difficult. Then another co worker today (knowing I don’t want to participate) sends an email about contributing money toward a gift card. I said I didn’t want to and she said I should be nice. Another co worker wrote back in the email that this girl has feelings and she thinks she should contribute money so she will (she talks behind her back any other time). Yes, I work with a childish bunch of 45-64 year olds. Then there is me and the preggo who is 29. Is it wrong of me to not want to give money for a gift for someone who obviously doesn’t care about MY feelings?? I don’t know how much more I can stand, I’m surrounded and no one understands because it’s so easy for them to become pregnant I guess.