I am an example of eating healthy, no caffeine for almost a year (I stopped consuming chocholate and decaf tea/coffee as well), doing acupuncture for 3 months once a week and pre and post transfer, praying and begging to God to give my blastocyst life, health and strength to become a healthy baby, grade A blastocyst, and still no baby. I was so afraid prior to last Friday that I would get a BFN so I prayed to God everyday and including today after i got a call from my doctor that my HCG level dropped that He would give me a baby or if it is not in His plan to give me a baby, to please strengthen my heart and give me peace to go through the BFN phase. And I am surprisingly calm right now. I worked hard and sacrificed a lot of things that I enjoyed to do/eat/drink for 3 months but I think maybe my blast wasn’t healthy and it’s my body’s natural way to eliminate abnormal cell (my blast) from my body and it is God’s way to show how He wants to protect me from getting ectopic pregnancy.
I am just trying to make sense of all of these. Deep in my heart I am very very sad but I asked God to make me strong right now and I dont want to cry because I have a meeting tomorrow and I don’t want to look like I got punched in the eyes. This sucks but I will get through this.
Also after going through this chemical pregnancy, I really think it takes just one healthy embryo for a successful pregnancy. It doesn’t matter if you eat healthy, do acupuncture every day, if the embryo is not normal it’s not going to implant correctly and grow normally. Heck, I watched my friend eating pizza and drank coke for breakfast and he has two babies and here I am telling my DH to eat healthy everyday. Thank you for listening.