We got the news on Thursday that I have stage 4 endometriosis and bad PCOS. My uteris is not ready for an embrio and my eggs, should they get me to ovulate will be low grade. The dr isn’t holding out much hope for us having our own…I’m wiped!
I still need to come to work, I still need to attend all my meetings and face people, neither of which I want to do right now. I want to go somewhere and sit down, quietly and absorb this. It’s like it is too much to understand or accept. I’m in full denial after having spent the weekend in a floating stupor…It’s all I ever wanted: a baby, being pregnant, going through birth. I longed for it since I was old enough to have my first period.
Life just doesn’t seem worth it. No promotion or salary adjustment, awards for brilliant work or landing a new international client…nothing has meaning. Everything is senseless. I wake up, exercise, eat breakfast, work, go home, eat dinner, work some more, go to bed, wake up, exercise, eat breakfast…
Please tell me there is a way to break out of this. I must pull myself together for my husband and my job. Does anybody have any advice?
Any suggestions will be appreciated. I’m really at witt’s end
Thanks so much