Hi there, fertility community…
I’ve been off and on this forum for a little while, and I wanted to start this thread to see if anyone out there has a little encouragement or help as I navigate thru this difficult process.
I did an IVF in October (ended in blighted ovum at 7 wks) and an FET in January (ended in miscarriage/trisomies 7 and 22 at 8 wks). I have my last two frozen embryos left and am scheduled for another FET in May.
I’m barely a month past the last miscarriage, and now I’m getting pretty terrified that my two remaining embryos will have chromosomal abnormalities or some other problem like my last two pregnancies did. (My clinic does not offer PGD.) They are 6 day hatching embryos – 5BA and 5BB. The last two I transferred were non-hatching 4AA and 3BB. Anyway, I know there is no guarantee in this process, but the miscarriages have just been SO hard.
I feel like my whole life is at a standstill while I wait for this to happen. I feel numb, sad, and pretty hopeless. Don’t get me wrong, I was THRILLED when I was pregnant last time, but I just wan’t lucky enough for it to last. It feels like I am going thru each day just trying to get thru the day – I’m probably depressed – and I need to get out of this funk.
What do you to make it through all of these psychological challenges?? I feel like I will never have a child… it is heartbreak every day!! I’d love to hear from anyone who has some encouragement.