I had three miscarriages back in 2006-2007 this is when we were first trying and before going to an RE. They were all chemical. I went on to have two healthy babies (well one not so healthy but born and has few health problems now!) I found out that I have a blood clotting disorder and endometroisis and other things check my signature. This last February I got pregnant and we were so happy. We heard the heart beat and baby was measuring right on track. Once we heard the heart beat I really wasn’t that worried since the chance of miscarriage dramatically is reduced. I was 10 weeks exactly and I lost all of my pregnancy symptoms I could tell something wasn’t right. I went into the ER figuring they would give me the ok and I would get to see the baby moving around and calm my fears. When I got the u/s I could immediately tell there was no heart beat. I asked and the tech said she can’t tell me that. Well I have seen enough u/s to know when the heart beat is gone. The baby measured 9 weeks 6 days so I think I lost it the day before I went in. It was devastating. I went in the following week to confirm that the baby was gone. We took cyctotec and I miscarried at home. We buried the baby in the backyard and planted a tree.
I am lucky enough to be pregnant again after trying since we lost the last. (three natural cycle’s and one clomid cycle resulted in :bfn: ) I am so nervous. I am on lovenox and baby asprin and folbic, but I was on this stuff last time. I go for a u/s in two weeks but I am dreading not seeing the heart beat. I don’t know if I can do it again. How does everyone get through the anticipation and the wait. I don’t know how to just calm down about it. I each day that God will allow this baby to born happy healthy and normal. I just don’t know why I lost the last baby and I don’t know if I can emotionally go through it again. Any insight or suggestions.