I can’t even begin to imagine what some of you women have gone through with your miscarriages…I recently found out I was pregnant and within a week it was gone. I’m absolutely devastated and I cannot deal with it and I can’t even imagine if I was pregnant longer.
I thought it was my miracle, I was awaiting for AF to start my first IVF cycle and I got pregnant on my own after being with my DH for 13 years and actually trying for almost 6…a couple weeks before Christmas. It was fate, it was going to be the best Christmas ever and I was going to share my news on Christmas Day with my family!
I went in for my first beta and it was only 29 but I thought maybe late implantation…then 2 days later my numbers went down and then next day AF showed herself and it was over just that quick. I don’t know what do next or how to feel. I can’t stop crying everyday. I had a chemical before but my numbers never went above 8 and I never received a positive HPT so I really never considered myself pregnant.
My DH says “just enjoy the holiday and be sad in January, I got you some great gifts”. He just doesn’t understand that what I want more then anything will not be under that tree.
How do I cope and get over this? What if I get pregnant again and I continue to experience early miscarriages! What if I never will be a mom!
Sorry to vent…just needed to share my feelings with someone that understands!