After the “spring break” I’ve had…blah!!! Feel free to add your own vents and frustrations!!
If my parents only knew…
… I wouldn’t have to hide DH’s supplements, my opk’s and hpt’s and thermometer, and dosage list, appointment cards, alcohol wipes, etc, and hope they don’t open the cabinet or frig and see IF related things every time they swing by my house. And I’ll be darned, I forgot to hide the brand new boxes of opk’s and hpt’s that were on the counter today, and the prescription receipts last Saturday when the 'rents and big-bro’s fam were here.
…that I’m taking a large amount of hormones that make me want to rip people’s faces off when they upset me, maybe they wouldn’t recommend me going ahead and getting my PhD to keep my “visiting instructor position” for next year. This would require me to either sell our house and move, or rent an apartment in order to go to a university which is an hour+ from my house, along with dr.'s appointments 2 hours away from the school and still teaching full time. Yeah, that’ll work well!
…that I’ve spent two days of my spring break with my bare butt out on a doctors table, in an unflattering position with a transvaginal wand in my you know what, and get to take an extra day out of work next week in an attempt to give them additional grandchildren, maybe they wouldn’t guilt me into going to the airport to pic up my bro and fam on Saturday, when there are other people that could pick them up besides just me. I’ve spent the week by myself while DH is at work, he was home late Mon, gone Wed night and tonight (see a few posts down, he’s at a “gig”), something will probably come up this weekend, and you, Mom and Dad, just shot a good 3 hours or more of baby making time with guilting me into the airport trip. And, I’ll have to probably find a way out of having dinner/hanging out with them when I drop them off at their house.
…that I’m really trying my best to get pregnant and having a hard time dealing with the fact that it isn’t going well, and though I’m really happy for her, maybe my mother would stop bringing up my pregnant cousin who got pregnant a month after she got married EVERY TIME I see her. Yes, she’s having her baby soon. Yes it’s mean, but I don’t want to hear about it. I wish her the best, now stop bringing it up. I’m sure it’s all I will hear about until something new happens in our family, so stop throwing it in my face!
…that we’re racking up our formerly paid off credit cards with medical bills to be able to have children, maybe my father wouldn’t lay a guilt trip on me for my husband getting together with a somewhat established bar band to make a little extra cash. Dad tells me tonight, “he really shouldn’t be in that environment, around those types of people.” Excuse me? Do I want him in a smoky environment? No, but he doesn’t drink or smoke, it’s not like “those” people will rub off on him. It’s one night, not even once a week (I know, probably still not the best for our situation). And he used to have his own band and was in the same environment, but all the money went to the “band” fund. It’s something he loves doing, so why should I tell him “you shouldn’t be around those types of people”? (well, really because we’re trying to get pg!, but I don’t think one night will make that huge of a difference…i hope?..)