It ain’t easy bein’ green
I’d like to scream right now, feeling really, really frustrated, when I shouldn’t. I had an HSG Thursday, and it was perfect, so that’s good news. But, I’m still spotting, which is incredibly frustrating. I’ve already had AF, why do I need to do it again! We’re ttc naturally this month due to the hsg, but the spotting is, well, a bit of a turn off. Ugh!
Add to that, that we’re supposed to get together with my family on Good Friday. That’s a normal occurrence, but why did the invite have to include, “so we can meet Ben.”? Really? And this is from another aunt/cousin, not even the new grandma/mom. Urrggh!!!
So, as the Great Kermit the Frog once said, “It ain’t easy bein’ green.” My cousin/the new mom just keeps whining on facebook. I’d like to tell her to stuff it. “So what if he didn’t sleep through the night, and you had to get up for that 1am feeding? Be glad he’s happy and healthy and it only took you one try. You wanted a baby so badly, stop *** about the fact that it’s tiring being new mom!”
I’m to the point of just being blatantly honest with my extended family, as I’m pretty sure they’ll ask on Friday, “when are you going to have kids?” My mom can be a blabber mouth, so I’m not sure who she’s told we’re trying, so I’m expecting to at least be asked once. I’d like to say, “when I win the lottery and can afford the treatments without selling all of my possessions.” Or, “How 'bout I pretend you didn’t just ask me that, and save the awkwardness that will follow my honest answer?” Or, “mind your own darn business.” “Got 20 grand?..I didn’t think so.” “Well, after 8 months, 4 medicated cycles, numerous bbt’s/opk’s/hpt’s, 6 ultrasounds, 5 samples from the DH, bloodwork from both, 2 IUIs, 7BFN’s, an HSG, and about 5grand, we’ll let you know when it happens for us!”
Now, I love my family. I do. And they probably won’t ask at all. But, I hate the fact that now that there is yet another new baby, that isn’t mine, that’s what the evening will be about. Along with Christmas, which is when, if IUI2 had worked, I could have been having a baby. Instead, I’m sitting here thinking about how 8 months ago I’d planned to be pregnant at this time, and rather than sitting here moping around, I’d be freaking out that DH hadn’t finished a blasted project he needed to before the baby came!
I HATE IF!!! Now I feel [I]a little [/I]better. What would you say if you could without feeling like a b****?