I have often heard and even made the statement before
that , " Everything happens for a reason"
as I sit here and ponder on my last Beta …when I called into my RE office and heard those words from my nurse beginning with" I’m sorry" I sit here and I wonder what my reason is in receiving the results that I received.
I came up with a few reason:
maybe I am not eating healthy enough
maybe I am not drinking enough water
maybe I need to increase my green veggies
maybe the 3 sodas I drank in 1 month I should not have
maybe I stress over the issue to much
What if this and what if that
Then I reconsider everything I just said maybe to because I am a healthy eater, I drink water, I am not over weight I don’t smoke, I don’t drink and I don’t do drugs…
however I have seen those that have done every drug from marijuana to meth to crack drink alcohol smoke
packs of cigarettes and go on to have a healthy baby !
Not married have kids when they didn’t even want to have a kid and complain the entire time when they are pregnant
about being pregnant .They go on to have kids by multiple men like 5 different dads …I could go on and on but I think you get the picture.
So my reason is : guess because my husband and I have been together for 8 years and we are in love. Oh might I add I would be a great mother and we are married. Or maybe because the baby would have stability and Parents that want he or she. We didn’t just have sex and surprise your pregnant and were not planning on it and now I’m upset. Maybe I am eating too healthy … Or maybe cause I have so much money I can just continue to spend it on IVF cycles!!! ******sarcastic
I am just so hurt and I know that I am not the only one that has been through this and unfortunately I want be the last…but I do not have money for multiple cycles , and the medicine its so expensive !
My RE’s have told me so many good things I have blastocyst , perfect lining and age is on my side. What Is the problem…I do not understand. why did I have a miscarriage and why with such perfect blastocyst and a perfect lining it didn’t work this time!!!
Should I switch and get another RE?
So I have decided to eat a bit more healthier no white bread, increase my veggies and fruits more protein…
sometimes I feel like it want work especially when I see crack and meth heads get pregnant…
so I am just venting and looking for encouragement on what I should do next should I take a break ?
I was thinking about starting up again in January by then I would have saved up more money and a new year maybe will bring new hope with a new healthy baby.
So everything happens for a reason…I just wonder what is mine???