I just re-read my post and realized I left out several words in my update. Hope you all can decipher okay
Better - Wow that is some great results so far from CO. I am glad you had that much time to relax too. We all need a nice relaxing time off. I’m so excited about your upcoming transfer.
mibella -I’m very sorry to hear about your loss. I would say better gave the best advise. You really need to go to a Reproductive Endocrinologist and not an OB.
I hope everyone is doing good. We are doing good. I’m glad my hubby is out of the house now more. I’m slowly getting rooms cleaned and things done that I wasn’t able to get to with him home all the time. I am currently weening myself off caffiene (again). I did fine when I wasn’t drinking it back in May, so I hope to get off it again and start working on losing those pounds before January.
Holding… So glad hubby got a job!!! Temporary or not, it’s bound to lift your spirits… Yay!!
Jenn, I am totlly with you on the worry. Except mine are less rational. My latest is I have ne’er gotten far enough along (16 weeks or so) to tell my mom about it (we aren’t very close) and I have a fear that I won’t get there… Or worse, I will tell her and then something terrible will happen. I don’t have a Doppler… Kinda wish I did… I was just obsessing in the middle of the night last night…
Arbor, thanks for asking, I have been too tired!! Work has picked up and it’s just wearing me out!! So I am either eating and/ or working or sleeping!! Time is flying by as a result!
Mibella, so sorry about you loss. I have never been as far along as I am now so I cannot imagine such a late loss. But you have found a good place to share your hopes and fears!!
Better, I am so glad this cycle went so well! There are so many things for us to be resentful about, we are all in that gray area that re’s hate because we require extra attention. I have had plenty if things that I have thought 'really? You couldn’t take that extra 2 minutes to check that out??? When I switched specialists I asked for previous records and there was a note in pencil about my thyroid number being high, but no in had bothered to mention it. I had spent almost 30k at that clinic at that point… Thanks a lot people… I could go on but I won’t… Hoping you get that bump you long for!!!
Afm, the ob appt went well, we got to listen to the hb, very comforting. Then we had an nt scan this past week. Very surreal. My baby is very active!! She was flipping and rolling all over the place. That was reassuring too. I have finally got to the point where it actually looks like a baby! But the confidence is so short lived, I am back to worrying all over again… :/. It really does never end does it!!! Ugh. Anyway, all is well as it going to be I guess!!
Have a great Sunday everyone!
Oh, and before I cause a stir, I am calling it a she, but we won’t know until the baby is born if we can help it… Just a guess at this point…
Jencat - I am so glad to hear it is going good. There were definitely times during my pregnancy where it felt like it flew by, mostly because I was tired and spent as much time in bed as possible. I totally get your fear. We are here for venting. We all understand. I plan on going to counselling once I end up preggers again, just for my own sanity. I think it’s funny you calling the baby a her as a guess. I called Sammie “the baby” for so long because even though we were told it was a girl I didn’t feel comfortable saying her or him until she was born. I’m glad to hear things are going good.
Better, jencat & holding…thank you so much for your replies…i’m praying that we get some good news…not scheduled to get my friend for another week or so…im glad i found somewhere i can share my experience with and you totally get me…especially since no one understands what im feeling, why i still get emotional, why i stray from attending baby showers, why it still hurts to see little girls…ive been told time and time again that i have to start the healing process which i have but on my terms…so thank you again and we’re remaining optimistic that we’ll be blessed again very soon…congrats on all the expecting mothers…and those trying again…hang in there…it’ll happen before you know it :grouphug:
Mibella- I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t even imagine the pain you have gone thru. Everything you are feeling is normal, the fears, the pain, the sadness, the worry, all normal. Deal with your grief in your own time and you’ll know when the time is right for you to start again. Definetly go see a RE to get tested and they will help you alot more than a gyno. This is a wonderful thread with wonderful women, at all different stages of their journey. Always feel free to vent, be excited, be sad, whatever you need to be. That is why we are here.
Better- so nice to hear from you!! It sounds like CCRM is turning out to be a god sent for you. I understand your frustration with your old place not finding what CCRM did in one visit. It can be frustrating, but at least now you are at a great place, with 16 blasts, which is an amazing number to have. How did your chromosonal testing turn out? I’m so very excited for you and what’s ahead.
Jencat- yup, you threw me off when you said “she”. I had a feeling mine was a boy, so maybe you are right in your feeling. You’ll find out soon enough. I’m so excited that you have made it this far, and that you have passed how far you have gotten before. I know the fears you are feeling, and I hate to tell you this but they don’t go away. But what I’ve learned is that your mind is extremely powerful, and it can really make things easier or harder. Try to focus on the good, the good results from the nt scan, how much the baby is moving, that wonderful feeling you had the first time you saw him/her. From what you’ve said, it sounds like things are going great. Keep us posted, rest when you can, and keep postive thoughts!
Jenn- how are things going? Shouldn’t you be doing the offical gender ultrasound soon? I know they suspect it’s a boy, but have you had confirmation yet?
Myss- how is your pregnancy going?
Holding- so glad you’re getting some time to yourself, sometimes that’s just what we need. I hope your dh is enjoying working.
Afm- my little guy kinda cooperated in the 3d ulstrasound. We got a picture of him smiling. It was pretty amazing. I am 30 weeks tomorrow, which means I’ve got 9 weeks to go! Holy crap! It’s creeping up fast! Don’t think I’m ready, but I don’t think you ever reallly are. We start our child prep classes next week, that surely will give me anixiety! But it will help me in the end to be more prepared.
Take care everyone!
Arborbaby…god bless you and your little guy…you have me choked up…thank you so much for your kind words…it’s been over a year and i still get stopped (like today) and asked so “how’s the baby”? and to have to repeat “she passed away” is like a stab in the heart…makes me replay the day all over again…ugh…but if it doesn’t happen really soon then i’ll definitely be going to see that specialist…hope you all have a great evening
Mibella, I don’t believe there is a healing process. It’s been over 2 years since Sammie died. I had one of the roughest days two nights ago that I’ve had since she died. I cried as hard as I did the night we found out our daughter no longer had a heartbeat. What triggered it? My neice just had a baby. I’ve known a lot of friends and people even a cousin and sister in law have all had babies since Sammie died and I didn’t cry this hard. It really hurt being floored by this. I’m suppose to be happy and everytime I think about it I just cry. The “healing process” isn’t really healing it’s just learning to live without. I’m still learning to live without. It sucks!
holding - you’re totally right…i guess i’m learning to live without…i know exactly what you mean in regards to crying…its hard to be happy for someone else when you’re in our situation especially when they’re close…still find myself crying…i hear conversations amongst family members about babies and who’s pregnant and i zone off in my own little world and think about my bella…coming to work doesnt make it any easier when me and 3 of my coworkers were all pregnant at the same time with girls…i shy away from asking about them and any conversations involving how they’re growing and what they’re doing because i know my bella would’ve been doing exactly that…but i have faith and i’m sure you do to that one day we’ll all get the opportunity to be mothers again and watch our babies grow…i’m sorry you’ve been going through motions…you’ll be blessed again just stay positive
I’m hoping that since this thread has been REALLY quiet, that it means that everyone is doing well and not stressing too much! I hope that is the case, and that good things are happening.
Jencat- how are you feeling these days? Are you tired of people asking that question? I know I can get a little annoyed with that question, because it seems like its all people ever ask me! So, let me rephrase… are you getting enough rest these days? Isn’t it about time to get your gender scan?! I hope things are going well and you are happy!
Mibella- i hope you are doing ok and finding ways to deal with your grief that is helpful to you. Holding understands what you are going thru more than anyone else on this thread, she’s a great support if you need her. Big hugs to you, i hope as time goes on, it heals a little bit more. Not that it will ever heal completely, but it will heal some.
holding- how are things going with your DH’s job? Any chance it will become permanet? When do you start another cycle? Next year? I can’t remember right now. Well, I hope things are going good for you.
Jenn- how is your pregnancy going? Hopefully that SCH has disappeared for good and you are feeling great!
Better- how is your cycle coming along?
Afm, we go to our first child prep class tomorrow, then my first baby shower is Sat. Things are moving very quickly it seems, I’m 31 weeks, so I could have my baby in 8 weeks!! I’m measuring right on track, so he’s not getting too big yet. I feel like I’m getting bigger everyday!! It sometimes doesn’t still feel real, like this isn’t all happening. I stil worry on days when he isn’t moving as much, I worry about the labor and all the pain that comes with it, I worry about the lack of sleep, I worry and worry. I know you ladies understand. It seems like it never ends. We worry about why we can’t get pregnant, then we worry when we get pregnant, then we worry the whole time we are pregnant! I can only imagine the type of worry I will feel when he’s actually here!
Big hugs to all of you, baby dust to those in cycles, continued sucessful pregnancies to those pregnant, and patience to those waiting to try again!
UPDATE…just dropping in!
[FONT=Century Gothic][SIZE=3]Hello everyone,[/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=Century Gothic][SIZE=3]I know that it has been quite some time since I have logged in and last posted. Well, life has been very busy for me and thanks to my condition of early pubic symphysis separation, I am now working from home until delivery. My little one is doing great and this week marks the beginning of the 3rd trimester for us. I don’t know what I was thinking when I registered to take some classes this fall. I am glad that I am only taking two, so that I am not overwhelmed. I find myself getting a bit tired during the middle of the day now and my thirst has really picked up over the past week. My little guy is also letting me know what he does not like already. Sometimes I’ll play some lullabyes on my belly and the ones he hates, he frantically kicks off with powerful punches. The ones he likes, he will be very still and listen to them calmly. Other than just constantly playing the waiting game and looking forward to my January due date, I am excited that my glucose test is next week, and my baby shower is in 3.5 weeks! I hope you all have been well! :grouphug: [/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=Century Gothic][SIZE=3]~Myss~ [/SIZE][/FONT]
Hey everyone. Sorry for dropping out for a while. I was in total freak out mode, and my only way of handling that is to just avoid. I couldn’t read about loss or pregnancy or anything.im doing better now. Things are going well. 19.5 weeks,and all is looking good. That darn SCH is still hanging on, but I have not had many problems from it lately. The baby is growing and moving a lot. And, fun fact, it’s a girl, not a boy! Im happy, my husband is disappointed. He will come around. How’s everyone else?
[FONT=Century Gothic][SIZE=3][B]arborbaby12[/B] - We’re doing pretty great over here and growing nicely! I hope you’re doing well too! Although I feel that I still don’t have much of a belly, my doctors say I am measuring almost 2 weeks ahead according to my findal height, so he is definitely making strides in there. As of tomorrow, I’ll be entering my 3rd trimester and I am SO excited that we’re almost there! Just 13 weeks to go! [/SIZE][/FONT]
Nice to hear from you Myss and Jenn!
Myss- glad to hear things are coming along nicely. Welcome to your third trimester! I can tell you by month 8, you will be feeling pregnant. But as the ends comes near, there is excitement and nerves! Have fun at your baby shower here in a few weeks! I think you’ll be surprised at how generous people are, at least I was!
Jenn- congrats on the girl! sorry your sch is still hanging around, but at least it isn’t effecting the baby. Sounds like overall things are good. I hope they stay that way.
Jencat, Holding, Better, and everyone else, hope all is going good! I miss hearing from you ladies.
Afm, I went for my 34 week Dr appt, had a ultrasound to measure out the baby. The dr said he is measuring more on the smaller side, but in the 25 percentile of where he should be. She said she worries if it’s in the 20%. They are estimating he is about 4.5 lbs right now, and will be about 3 lbs more by birth. She did mention that his head is measuring small, and that he probably will be long and skinny. She wasn’t concerned yet, wants me back in 3 weeks for another ultrasound to see how he’s growing. Worst case scenerio is that my placenta isn’t working properly and hes not getting all the nutrients to him. If in 3 weeks if he still is on the small side, she might want to take him early to get him on breast milk to get the nutrients that he needs. I, of course, am freaking out. Cried on the drive home once everything kinda sunk in. I just want a healthy baby. I know the dr isn’t worried, but you hear all these possiblities and your fear takes over. So now it’s going to be the longest 3 weeks ever having to wait until the next ultrasound. Please pray for my little guy! Thanks ladies
Wow, she’s waiting three weeks. I would call back and insist on another in two weeks. I don’t know, I already lost a baby at full term, so I am the wrong person to ask advise. I would be freaking out too. I’m so sorry. It’s almost over! It will all be worth it when you have him in your arms! I know this is hard, but you are almost there. She is seeing you weekly right? The last portion you should be seeing your OB weekly. Maybe not an ultrasound weekly, but definitely see the doctor weekly.
afm, we are doing alright. My hubby had a job interview in Maine on Monday. It was really nice, the company invited both of us up to the area to check it out and they paid for our hotel and are reimbursing our food and miles. We were there for the hurricane, but it was “safer” by the weather maps than being in our home. The company actually paid for an extra day because of the hurricane and we had a nice drive home. I loved the area and we had lobster three days in a row. It was so fun. We hope and pray that this job comes through. My hubby isn’t looking forward to being apart for a bit, but I keep explaining to him that if I stay where I am (jobwise) we have IVF paid for and I have to get the house together for the move it’s not like it’s ready to be rented or sold. He just doesn’t want to be alone. We are still planning on trying to do a treatment either January or Feb depending on the doctor’s office and when we have the funds together for the donor sperm. Anyhow, I hope everyone is doing good.
Afm, I went for my 34 week Dr appt, had a ultrasound to measure out the baby. The dr said he is measuring more on the smaller side, but in the 25 percentile of where he should be. She said she worries if it’s in the 20%. They are estimating he is about 4.5 lbs right now, and will be about 3 lbs more by birth. She did mention that his head is measuring small, and that he probably will be long and skinny. She wasn’t concerned yet, wants me back in 3 weeks for another ultrasound to see how he’s growing. Worst case scenerio is that my placenta isn’t working properly and hes not getting all the nutrients to him. If in 3 weeks if he still is on the small side, she might want to take him early to get him on breast milk to get the nutrients that he needs. I, of course, am freaking out. Cried on the drive home once everything kinda sunk in. I just want a healthy baby. I know the dr isn’t worried, but you hear all these possiblities and your fear takes over. So now it’s going to be the longest 3 weeks ever having to wait until the next ultrasound. Please pray for my little guy! Thanks ladies[/QUOTE]
Hi arborbaby and all the ladies!
Arborbaby, you and me are so close on due dates…of course, I have twins so my appts have been a bit different with different frequencies. but I have to agree with holding…you should try and get in a bit earlier than 3 weeks. I would really push for two weeks for ultrasound so they can gauge some growth, and I would push for weekly appts at 34 weeks. I know your baby boy is fine, but there is nothing more reassuring than a proactive approach. Tell your doctor that you feel more comfortable with a proactive approach. I hope they listen to you and change the dates. I will be praying for you and I know everything will be fine. Your baby boy is just smaller and that’s normal too.
AFM, I’ve been given an induction date of 11/20. I go in the night before and deliver on the 20th. All I can say is that I’m huge! I’m not sleeping well anymore. My fundal height a few weeks ago was 42 weeks! I’m very happy though…just scared and worry about everything!
Ladies, take care…praying for us all!
Thanks holding and BBluck for your advice. I guess I didn’t explain myself correctly, I go for the ultrasound in 2 weeks, then I see the dr the following week. It’s actually only a few days apart, so I won’t have to wait long. I’ve been seeing the dr every 2 weeks, and that seems to be working out good for me. So I will let you know what happens. I will say, I’m not as worried as I was when I first talked with the dr. It was my husband and I pushing her for worst case scenerios, not her volunteering them. But she feels that he’s just gonna be a little on the small side. You never know, he could have a growth spurt and all my fears could be for nothing. But this is just what we do, we worry. Thanks for listening.
BBluck- how exciting, you are almost there! You must be so uncomfortable, I know I am, and I’m not nearly as big as you are! I hope these last few weeks treat you good and all goes well with your delivery. Keep us posted!
Holding- sounds like you and your DH had a nice little vacation! I hope he gets this job and things will be stable for you guys. Is he still working at the temp job? Are you still working a million hours a week? Hang in there
hope everyone else is doing good
I’m still alive! Tired, but alive!
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Hi everone, Happy Thanksgiving! How is everyone doing?