Hello everyone. After reading previous postings, I found it comforting to realize that I am not the only one going through this. My husband and I have experienced 1 ovarian ectopic, 1 blighted ovum (miscarriage) and a ruptured corneum ectopic. My right fallopian was taken after the last ectopic. We waited a whole year before thinking about seeing a specialist. I am in the Army and the process to seek out Infertility help is a rather long and complicated one. We have to go through referrals and be extremely patient. I was diagnosed with PCOS on top of my tubal disease at the first appointment. HSG showed a blocked right fallopian…which bummer for us…we were really hoping that it was still good. Clomid challenge turned out well…aside from my PCOS and my tubal disease…both my husband and I are pretty healthy. Follow up appointment was last Wednesday and it was confirmed that IVF is definitely my only choice. Guess how long the waiting list for IVF? 1 long year :grr:
I am sooo frustrated and sad and just desperate! I don’t understand sometimes why i have to go through this. My best friend is pregnant and having a great ol’ time. I am dragged into baby showers and babys r us…and I find myself so angry inside. I hate that i feel so envious and so sad. I have been slowly distancing myself from her…avoiding phone calls…because I just don’t want to hear about it. In the midst of being poked and prodded…the last thing I want to hear about is how much her baby is kicking. I am such an *******!!!
With that said…I’m desperate to get the ball rolling. We are thinking about seeking IVF help from a civilian facility. IVF treatments are a huge financial responsibility…of which I am willing to take…but I’M SCARED! I don’t want to face another disappointment. I don’t think my heart can take it.
All I have is a prayer.
BTW…thanks for listening!