I know it’s wrong to hate the fact that everyone else I know is pregnant and I’m not. I know I’m supposed to be happy for every pregnant person but it’s just not that easy!
I feel like sometimes I want to scream! I’m definitely tired of having each one of my younger cousins, cousins-in-law, and friends have babies left and right. Why not me? I know that sounds selfish and childish!
DH and I have been married for 3 years and TTC for 2. But have been together for 12 total. We’re older so naturally, our relatives and more pushy than normal.
I also come from an immigrant family which means all filter goes out the door. Even had my dad ask my DH if he knew how to do it right. - eww gross! Every remark is straight to the point and made as a joke, but it’s not funny. Remarks like “still nothing”, “can’t believe I got pregnant before you”, “waiting on you”, and “what are you waiting for?” UGH!!!
It’s not like we can just come out and say it out loud. So everything is a secret. We just put on a happy face and just say…“We’re not not trying”.
When in fact, we’re trying our hardest, spending all this time and money we don’t have, but nothing is working.
They don’t see me taking meds, having my vag probed twice a month, me crying whenever I see the :bfn: on my hpts, or the fights DH and I have due to frustration and lack of money.
It’s to the point where I don’t want to call or visit my family at all in order to avoid any questions or insensitive remarks.
But we can’t avoid them forever, this month, we have to visit both sides of the fam. And here’s the kicker…we have to attend Baby showers for one of his cousins and one of mines. This is gonna be fun! NOT!
I just need some advice on how to deal!
I really don’t want to start crying at these events or worse, blow up on someone.
How do I put on a happy face without crying or getting angry??