So, I’m new here. I’ve had a lot of loss and it’s finally really catching up with me.
2008: I got pregnant and had a miscarriage. It was really messy and traumatic. :wings:
2009: my mom was diagnosed with cancer.
February, March and April of 2010: three failed IUIs :bfn: :bfn: :bfn:
June 2011: my mom died. :wings:
May 2012: IVF cycle with fresh transfer :bfn:
May 2012: my dad is diagnosed with cancer (recurring after seven years)
July 2012: my dad dies
In our second and third IVF cycle we made four embryos, which are now frozen, and I have a FET on October 22.
I just… am tired. So much loss after loss after loss. I am not sure what to do or say, because I’m not sure there is anything to do or say. I just keep going forward because that’s all there is to do.
I am scared to defrost the embryos. I am scared that if I get pregnant I’ll have another miscarriage. Part of me feels like as long as the embryos are frozen, they are safe
But it really hurts. I need to see my family grow and not just continue to die away.
I haven’t really shared this with anyone. Thanks for listening!