[QUOTE=HumDucky]Thanks for the kind words and reassurance. I am just hoping that they don’t cancel my cycle for failure to respond to the stims. I can’t do this again until Christmas if that is the case. I am an emotional wreck and have already missed too many days of work for appointments and also for being sad and upset and not being able to handle being at work. I cannot do this procedure while I am working. I give huge snaps to anyone who can, but I know that emotionally I cannot. I am a teacher and i have to wait until summer or Christmas to avoid missing too much work. I am just finishing up my first 6 week round of acupuncture on Thursday. I am scheduled to have 4 weeks off and then begin sessions again two weeks before my egg retreival date. I already take folic acid, vitamin D and eat very healthy. I don’t drink or smoke and I am trying to get to the gym when I can. We have sever male factor, but with ICSI that should be handled. I am just so worried about not producing enough eggs. My mom went through complete menopause by age 40. I kept asking my gyno if that was something I should worry about. He told me no over and over again. Apparently he was wrong and now I have waited too long to start TTC. We weren’t ready before, but at least maybe we would have had a better chance. I am just so angry that this is happening to us. Everyone I know has gotten pregnant on the first try even a friend who just got married at 40. She got pregnant on her honeymoon!!! :grr: I hate to wish this on other people, but I hate being the only one I know who has had problems. It makes me feel like God is smiting us or something. I know I shouldn’t think like that, but what other explanation is there? None I suppose and that is what makes it feel so bad.[/QUOTE]
I know exactly how you feel. I have felt that way many times. That’s why we are here. I went in to my primary doc’s office today, and the nurse that took my vitals is devastated by her “unexpected pregnancy”, and makes sure everyone knows. She even made the comment “oh, you don’t want to end up like me”… All I could think was, “Why does she get a baby when I don’t?” How can people be so insensitive?