My husband and I have been trying to conceive for over a year (we are both 38). We had 4 medicated IUI cycles with no luck and finally moved on to ivf. After a month of shots they were only able to retrieve 6 eggs, 4 fertilized and 3 survived. We used two this last/first cycle and froze 1.
We were so excited to find out after the 5 day transfer, 2ww, and continued hormones into my body that we were pregnant. We went for all our ultra sounds and had a great little heart beat at all of them last one at 8 weeks 155. My ivf specialist actually gave me my walking papers and said, I’ll see you for baby 2. At 9 weeks we went to my gynecology appt and they told us the heart beat was gone.
I was/am so devastated. We went back to the fertility specialist and he confirmed that it was no longer a viable pregnancy. I had a d&c on Friday (4/26) and cried through the whole day. I couldn’t wait to be knocked out just so I could stop feeling. The doctors said they we’re able to get a good sample of the poc to test and that it was probably a chromosomal issue. Physically, I’m feeling ok but mentally I can’t even get out of bed.
I’m so mad and scared that I’ll never get to be a mom- I just don’t understand and I don’t really know what to do next. I know everyone says heal but serious how? I feel like time is running out as is our money and my ability to stay positive. I’m also worried about the 1 little frozen bean we have - how do we know that it’s ok?
I’d appreciate any thoughts you all have and it does help to read about all of you. It helps to know I’m not alone.