Hi all! I’m looking for hope today. I tested this morning, and it looks like my third round of IVF has failed. Though my insides are a mess (as you can tell from my signature), I thought IVF would work for me since I’m still somewhat young and feel healthy. My RE always says I’m young and healthy too!
I am fortunate to be in an IVF share program, so I still have 2-3 rounds of IVF left, but I almost don’t want to go forward with them using my body! At this point, I feel like it’s too riddled with endo and hormonal issues to support a pregnancy, so I’m thinking about looking into surrogacy. I also plan to start the adoption process now. I want to have more than one child, so even if the IVF works later on, I’ll be thrilled to have an adopted child and a biological child.
So, here are my two questions:
- Can anyone share a success story about someone like me? Has anyone had success after 3 failed IVFs and horrible endo?
- I constantly go back and forth between trying to be hopeful and accepting that I can’t have children of my own. I believe in the power of the mind, so sometimes I pep talk myself and tell myself that it will happen for me. But then on other days, I feel like it’s dangerous for me emotionally to get my hopes up like that and that the best thing I can do is focus on adoption / moving on. Does anyone else feel this constant swing between the two emotions? I suppose I should “expect the worst and hope for the best,” but I don’t think I’m wired that way, haha! I have to do one or the other and I don’t know which way is best!! Help me new online lady friends