I had known I was infertile years before I went to a doctor and I have had "enough" time to grieve and feel resignation. I am not currently ttc but as soon as I marry next year my fiance and I have decided to give it a try. I love him very much and even though my desire to have a child is still there, before he came into my life I had come to terms with being childless. I don't know how to start this over. I am alone in this, no one in my family or friends is infertile and I can't go through this by myself again. My fiance is very supportive but he has no idea what its like. I came to this site to offer support as I consider myself somewhat of a veteran in IF battle but I also came here because I need to be able to vent and talk to people who have gone through the same thing. If I do this it will be my last try, I don't think I have in me the strength for another long battle with IF. Thank you all for reading this.