I know I may joke and laugh about this. But tomorrow is my beta and I’m scared beyond belief. I feel good even though I’m on a ridiculous about of estrogen, I have more energy than last time. And most of all I’m just calm. And all this scares me.
I been so calm that I just feel like I have nothing to worry about. But then I wonder what if it comes back negative or worse just like last time. And what if it comes back positive, will I still worry even more until we know its all clear. That’s 12 weeks of wonder.
Tomorrow is just another step in this journey. And it’s one of the biggest ones.