I don’t have the lengthy history as some do. My Dh and I have very few issues, we have found that he has low counts and everything checks out with me. I have regular cycles, I ovulate, no endo or polyps or cysts. We tried to conceive for 2 years before seeking help and now 3 years after that we have done 1 IUI which went really badly due to a very poor sperm collection. After that we decided to save for IVF which took a year. The first IVF I responded poorly and only had 4 follicles so we switched to an IUI, immediately went into another IVF cycle where they collected 11 mature eggs and 8 of those fertilized using ICSI. We transferred 2 on day 3, 4 arrested and 2 were frozen. We did single embryo transfers with the remaining frozen embryos.
Even after all this I have never been pregnant. All the embryos were graded nicely and still nothing. This has left me completely heartbroken and unable to be hopeful about any further treatment. No one tells you how hard it is when treatment fails. I have no more money to spend on this. I would rather buy a new car then to put myself through those emotions again and knowing my track record it would just fail anyway.
I would love so much to be pregnant and to hold my baby in my arms but what will be the cost to make that happen. Financial debt, emotional scars, physical scars. I don’t think this would make me a good parent.
I am moving on at only 28 years, everyone will say you are so young you can still try so much. The majority of my 20s have been spent on trying to get pregnant I am ready to move on and live a real life. The wounds are still fresh that is why I am writing this and it is a sad post. Nobody will ever understand like the people who visit this forum.
I wish everyone here the kind of luck I never had.