So, I had my ER last Tuesday and ET last Friday…not the great news I was expecting, which is also why I find myself in this really annoying limbo of irritation and impatience: got 14 eggs, 11 mature enough to ICSI, 6 survived to embryo. Great! But then I find out that of the six, four are grade C, two are B-, and only one of them has 5 cells - the rest are all 4-, 3- and a 2-cell. NOT great. Plus ER said there was cell fragmentation on all. Even more not great. ER says it’s probably due to sperm issues, since my oocytes were all jolly until DH’s boys got in there. sigh.
So they put the two B-'s in - a 5 cell and a 4 cell, and now it’s hurry up and wait.
My huz says they shouldn’t have even told me about the quality because I’d be in a totally different frame of mind…he’s right, if they’d said they were grade A perfect 8-cells I’d be feeling really confident now. But as it is, I’m sad, annoyed, and aggravated with myself for having any expectations in the first place from a process that’s clearly so unpredictable. And normally when I feel this way - which is rare!!! - I hit the gym, clean the house, tune up the bikes - basically get some heart pumping exercise. Or at least have a couple of drinks!! NEITHER of which is an option, and I feel like while I’m trying to ‘relax’ and not obsessively google for 4-cell day3 success stories I’m going completely bat$hit.
UGH. Anyone else in the same boat & care to commiserate?