Thoughts Of Becoming A Mother


#1

I read this a while ago…and I saved it to my computer, and every once in a while, I will read it. So I wanted to share this with you all…

There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know I will be better.

I will be better not because of genetics or money or that I have read more books but because I have struggled and toiled for this child. I have longed and waited. I have cried and I prayed. I have endured and planned over and over again.

Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams. I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover, I will marvel at this miracle everyday for the rest of my life.

I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold, and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.

I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.

Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love

I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, a friend and a sister because I have known pain.

I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tired by the fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.

I have prevailed
I have succeeded
I have won

So now, when others hurt around me I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs,

I listen

And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten, as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard, I have learn a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.

Yes I will be a wonderful mother.


#2

This is really very beautiful. Thanks for sharing, :slight_smile:


#3

I love this and can relate to it so perfectly, this is how I feel.


#4

thanks for posting!

That is so well written. We’ve all thought all of those things to ourselves throughout this journey, I am glad someone has put it into words!


#5

Thank you

This is both so inspirational and comforting!
Thank you for posting!

Often times, I find myself screaming out “It’s not fair!”

or “Why not me?”

Gotta remember strength through adversity!

Good luck to all of us!

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