Your story sounds a lot like mine, and I agree that it has been very difficult!
I get sooooo annoyed when people make comments like “it will be easier the second time around” and “if you just stop trying, it will happen.” Then, like you, they share stories of people they know who got pregnant on vacation or during a break or whatever. That is NOT US. I don’t ovulate. Ever. I HAVE to use injectables. So that leaves me in a position of acting positive like “oh wow, thanks, that makes me feel so much better” or correcting them and telling them it will never happen for us. The Debbie Downer in me usually does the latter, just so they stop doing stupid stuff like that to other people.
I guess I just thought it would be easier the second time around. My body knows what to do, and the plan obviously works. And, I was able to get pregnant fairly easily the first time. Our first cycle was a BFN due to short luteal phase (period came 8dpo, so they started progesterone). Had the next cycle canceled for understim and the next for overstim, and then got pregnant with one good follie the next cycle. So it was basically our first good cycle, since we had the progesterone. This year I have done 5 injectable/TI cycles, and three of them have been pretty bad because they cut my meds back to decrease overstimming and then all the follicles die and my estrogen drops. I don’t know why the other 2 cycles didn’t work. But I keep getting cysts and having to wait. We’ve done 5 cycles in an entire calendar year, and NO, I’m not able to try in between. These are my only chances.
We are finally on to IVF and my retrieval was Friday. Hoping for better success this time around. But then I worry about finances, because I don’t want to bankrupt #1’s college fund for this. But, also, our family doesn’t seem complete.
And I agree with whomever posted about the difficulty of doing thsi with another little one at home. It’s hard to rest after retrieval, or find time for our PIO shots, or hide all my meds, or explain to a 2-year-old why mommy is always at the doctor. After a full year of this, I’m just tired and ready for it to work.
Thanks for letting me vent…sounds like we are both coming from the same place.