Hello everyone! I’m 47, married, no kids. My DH and I have been TTC for 9 years already. I’ve got pregnant in 2012, but there was problem with my kidneys and doctors had to terminate pregnancy. There is a very high risk for me to get pregnant again. We decided to use services of surrogate mother. Surrogacy is forbidden by law in our country and we are looking for options abroad. Which country is better to go? Which clinics are better to address? How long it takes to find sm? I read that sometimes it takes years. Is that true? I’m not getting any younger. I’m afraid that my eggs won’t be valid in a couple of years. I don’t want to lose time. I’m afraid it may be too late for us and there will be no chance to become parents.
Hello everyone who is reading my thread! I wasn’t active for a while… I haven’t done any research on surrogacy during these days… It makes me so angry at myself that I’m wasting time, but… There is a reason for my inaction. I don’t want to whine and complain. I know that doing those things is just a waste of time. But I feel like I need to talk to someone. It feels like the whole world is against our intention to have a baby. Last week I met my old friend. We studied in college together. We met in a local supermarket. She was with her kids, 9 and 2 yo. Of course she started to ask about my kids and I told her I don’t have one. And she was like “OH REALLY?” She was looking at me like I’m crazy person. The only thing I wanted to do at that moment is to disappear. I wanted to explain myself and I don’t know how this happened but I told her that we are planning to have surrogacy. Usually I don’t tell about it and only the closest people know about it. And what do you think she told me? “Oh honey, don’t be stupid. It’s too late for you. Just let it go.” And she was stupidly smiling and she had that dumb smirk on her face as if she knows everything about me and can tell me what I have to do with my life. Not only I was mad at her, but I was mad at myself. Why? Why have I told that bitch about surrogacy? Why I even care what she thinks? I have so many thoughts in my head now! I’m so angry! Why do I care what someone who means nothing for me thinks about my choices? And I’m just sitting here, doubting my intentions to have surrogacy. What if she’s right? What if it’s too late for us? I hate this.
I’m so sorry about your situation dear! You made a great thing you came here. We are all in the same boat. Who else can understand better than we do? It was also hard for me to open up to people I don’t know. But here we can receive support and understanding which sometimes we can’t get from our family or friends. I know how hard it is to find a clinic. Recently I was in your shoes. Though search can take some time but eventually you’ll find the best place for you! We found clinic in Europe. They’ve already found sm for us and we are waiting for our baby to see the world) I wish you good luck with your search!
[QUOTE=“NoraTre, post: 1871059, member: 88478”]I’m so sorry about your situation dear! You made a great thing you came here. We are all in the same boat. Who else can understand better than we do? It was also hard for me to open up to people I don’t know. But here we can receive support and understanding which sometimes we can’t get from our family or friends. I know how hard it is to find a clinic. Recently I was in your shoes. Though search can take some time but eventually you’ll find the best place for you! We found clinic in Europe. They’ve already found sm for us and we are waiting for our baby to see the world) I wish you good luck with your search![/QUOTE]
Thank you so much for support! I’ll consider your advices. It’s so nice to talk to someone who is at the same boat. We’ve been TTC for so long… To be honest I’m exhausted. I want my surrogacy journey to start as soon as possible. I’m tired of waiting and hope for nothing. I believe surrogacy will give us a chance to live happily. I decided to concentrate on European clinics. They have pretty reasonable prices. USA prices so high I doubt we can afford to have surrogacy there. I hope I’ll find something during next couple of months. Don’t want to waste time any more. I’ll update as soon as there will be some news.
Hello girls! To be honest I’ve been stressed last couple of days or even weeks… All these negative thoughts made me lost in time… I’ve been thinking over and over again about all that things which my “friend” told me. She made me doubt about my choice and this is not a good thing. This was a huge lesson for me. No one should stop us from reaching our goals. There are so many people who think they can tell us what to do. They judge us so easily. They don’t even think they can hurt our feelings and our mind. But the thing is they don’t know how we feel and what we have to face during our battle with infertility. The best thing for us is to just ignore them and do what is the best for us and our family. I understand that I was so stupid that I let her words to make me doubt in the thing which is now my only option to have children. I wasted so much time thinking about her words, thinking about her opinion which has nothing to do with me. I’m so glad to be back here. I will definitely continue my search about surrogacy. I don’t have time for stress, depressions, for thinking if this option is good for me or not. Because I’ve already decided that surrogacy is the best for me and my husband. Anyway these days helped me to understand that no one and nothing will stop me from reaching my goal. I will never ever listen to anyone who would tell me surrogacy is wrong and not for me. I will do everything possible to make my family happy. To make myself happy. From now on I will find all information I need to start my surrogacy journey. This will be kind of a challenge for me. In a month I want to see huge result. I want my journey to start in 2018. So I will do everything to make it happen.