I haven’t been on here in a few weeks as I’ve been trying to get my head around never having another baby I can’t believe I’m even typing these words as it’s all I’ve thought about for two years and here I am, thinking seriously about moving on.
Anyway, in two days I’m having the last battery of tests with my new clinic (they’ve done all the immune, blood etc and all fine) and I’m having a laparoscopy and hysteroscopy just to tie up this loose end, though there’s really no need to think anything will be found as I’ve never had much problem with pain etc. The cost of yet another procedure is what hurts the most. Anything that takes away finances for treatment makes me irate!
My question is, if/when this surgery reveals yet again that nothing is wrong, do we give up and accept that 2 years and 3 top quality embryos later we are just not meant to have another baby? Or is it possible that top quality blasts can be chromosomally abnormal and we should try genetic testing?
I’ve been skeptical of this option - in the past even the abnormal embryos would implant and I’d eventually have a miscarriage. Now, nothing. Not a hint of HCG has shown since we started back on this journey which means the embryos aren’t even trying to implant. Embryos that were apparently thriving in the Petri dish die as soon as they are transfered. Surely even an abnormal embryo would try and implant?
So what am I missing?
Sorry this is such a novel - I’m just devastated and broken right now and not sure how much more I can take